Archive for April, 2010
running for my life
Apr 30th
I’m hitting the big 3-0 this year. (Wow, I am finally comfortable with divulging my age LOL) I call it the big 3-0 not because I look at it as the beginning of the end, but because I see it as the beginning. I know my thirties will be some of the best years of my life because I have come into my own power enough to know that I can make them just that. I can make my life whatever I want it to be. Something I wasn’t so much aware of in my twenties when I was more a victim of life’s circumstances lol. Being knocked around a bit by its tumultuousness. Now? I’ve learned a thing or two about riding the waves. So, I decided to compile a bucket list. No, not a list of things to do before I die, but a list of things I want to accomplish before I turn 30 on the last day of this year. I call it my “29 before 30″ list. Of course, item 30 would be seeing my 30th birthday which in and of itself is an accomplishment in the world we live in today. I haven’t decided if I am going to share my entire list (maybe at a later time) but I will share one of the things on my list.
I registered to run in the NYC 27-mile MARATHON. No, I’ve never run a marathon, or more than 3 miles for that matter. Yes, I am scared shitless. I attended a meeting for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society (Team-In-Training) the other day. As you may or may not know, I’ve lost quite a few loved ones to cancer. I walked into the meeting knowing two things: 1. I’ve been looking to assist in the fight of the disease in some way, shape or form and 2. I wrote marathon down on my 29 before 30 list as one of the biggest fears I’ve decided to confront.
After hearing the stories of the cancer survivors–one who ran and FINISHED a marathon 8 days after finishing chemo–I have no choice in the matter. If they had the strength to fight this malicious disease and win, I knew I had the strength to run 27 miles for a great cause.
I’m excited, scared, emotional, courageous and anxious all at the same time. It’s a wonderful thing.
I am inviting friends, loved ones, and total strangers to share in this feat. I have to fundraise $1000.00 to claim my spot in the race and $3800.00 or more for the cause. Proceeds go toward furthering cancer research. Every little bit helps. SO please please please find the link to my fundraising page below and help donate towards this cause. I’d love for you to share in this special time with me as I prepare to run in honor/memory of my daddy, my sister, my two aunts and so many more that the disease has affected. Thanks in advance and Much Love! ♥
belief
Apr 26th
i have to believe in the goodness of humanity. it’s a necessity to exist during these times. i have to believe in the laughter and innocence of babies. that they all won’t grow up to be blind. i have to believe in the endurance of the trees and that of our ancestors. so that i can believe in mine. i have to believe in the kindness of strangers but more so the amount of themselves they find in me. i have to believe in something. as we all do if we aren’t to fall for everything we see. i have to believe in rainbows and silver linings but not in pots of gold. i have to cherish the three-leaf clovers rather than passing them over to search for the four-. i have to believe in you. but more than that, in me. i have to believe in the days i’ve forgotten and the days i’ve yet to see. i have to believe in the strength in numbers and the power in words. the love in others. the uprightness of her. i have to believe in a infectiousness of a smile so that even when it hurts i can. i have to believe in the might of one pair of shoulders but further the significance of one helping hand. i have to believe in the unseen because what we’re shown is so bleak. i have to be a ray of light every time i speak. i have to believe that what i believe matters and will be heard. it is only due to my belief that i continue to type these words.
** this did not begin as a poem. it came out rhyming but the thoughts were just flowing thoughts. prose. they chose their own fate.